Half a Million Thoughts

Chapter One

Sitting down on a computer- 11:42. She's an acquaintance of acquaintance of an acquaintance whose on my friends list. I first saw her on facebook and it was love at first site.

11:46- Friend request- She will accept me, she will accept me not, she will accept me.

Is it cheating if I'm in love with some else. Dating should come with expiry dates. That way we can throw em out before they go bad. Love depreciates with the number of orgasms I have, I think this is why older married couples stop having sex, to keep the love. Too late, I should leave Shama. I'm in love with every other girl who whose willing to give me time. I am hopeless and in love but am not hopelessly in love.

Am I a bad person. I don't put a question mark cause it's a rhetorical question. She loves me I love her not. Her love is rhetorical too. I met her at a party, it was a three part process.

Our Eyes Met
We Met
We Mate

Some fish Mate for life, they also have five second memories.

I have good memories of her, decent memories. I wonder if she will get over me, I am over her, even though we are still dating. I think boredom is a stronger feeling than Love.

12:04- Phone rings, its her ring tone. She has her own ringtone, her own nick name. She's like a jingle now, a way to advertise me, to make me more interesting to others. I am more interesting now cause I come with attachments.

I don't want to pick up the phone. I don't want to talk to her, what if I have nothing to say. I can't improvise life. I hope she thinks I'm sleeping. Still ringing. I'll have to pick it up but I'll make it short, cell phones give you tumors.

"Heylo, how are ya (can i keep the phone now) I was just sleeping, you know me, always sleeping (is it too early to keep the phone now). Can I see you tomorrow, I really miss you" (Women fake orgasms we fake enthusiasm)- oh yea you have that midterm, you should study (only ask for things she cant provide) Yea no I'm good- like I said I was sleeping ( I feel a lull coming, I should keep the phone now) I am going to have to keep the phone now I got knives in my eyes. Nite, me too, Mwwwaaaahhh"